It’s a New Year! 2010 – The Best Year Ever?

It has been a busy month for me and suddenly 2010 is in full swing. I always make goals for myself. Some I keep or surpass, others never transpire. Life is a continually evolving, changing process and even the best laid plans go astray because of circumstances. I had the goal to get my first book published in 2009 and that was accomplished, along with the second in the series at the end of the year. My goal for those would have to be increasing sales, and interest in the series. (I have more rough drafts and ideas to continue the story of Carmen and Adrian.)
Another goal is to get my young adult book published this year and I have already started sending out queries.
           On a personal level, my life is in upheaval at the moment, which has a tendency to consume my thoughts of what is in store for me in the future. It’s more difficult to concentrate on work when you are having relationship issues. Whether they are friends, or family. Life seems to hit me from every angle at the same time. I know that as I stay focused it’s just another phase in the grand scheme of things that will pass. The processes are always the most painful though.
           One of my best friends has been suffering from a life threatening illness for the last couple of years. She is one of the nicest people I have had the privilege to know, always putting others before herself. Only a miracle will keep her here much longer. But I do believe in miracles. I’m a writer and an artist. Life would be dull without belief in fairies and muses, or fantasy and phenomenon. And I do believe in God and second chances in life.
           Another of my very close friends is going through relationship problems with his wife. I feel strongly that they have never had the best marriage available, but at the same time you hate to see someone suffer through the turmoil of separation and divorce. Years spent with an individual seem to become suddenly null and void. They are trying to be amiable toward each other and not make a rash decision. But if things have never been best from the beginning, is it possible to capture a thing that hasn’t ever been there? I am split in two with this. The half that says, go out and make a new life for yourselves while you still can and the half that says to stay together and nurture what you have built over the years. It may not be the ultimate that is available, but is it so bad that throwing it away is the only option?
           This in not shaping up to be the start of a good year. But the year is brand new and the unknowns are plenty still. Maybe the end will be so much better than the start that we will be looking back with a sense of satisfaction that we stuck through all the hard decisions to see happiness on the other side. Maybe there is a better treatment or cure on the horizon and my friend will get healed. Maybe this couple will kindle something in their lives together that has never been there, a fire that has been dormant all these years, just waiting for an opportunity to arise. Or maybe they will start over and discover that they can still remain friends through the whole process and find contentment on the other side of it.
            Only time and the new year will tell.

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